Show Me the Fire in Your Heart & I Will Show You Mine

People are reasoned, while God is mad. They love only beauty; who knows what God loves? – Annie Dillard Who knew hayfever and heat could be so incapacitating? I have been languishing, lazy and lethargic in this heat; my very bones seem to have taken on weight and any attempt at movement or even mentalContinue reading “Show Me the Fire in Your Heart & I Will Show You Mine”

Suffering in the Presence of God

Isaiah 26:16-17: Lord, in distress we searched for you. We prayed beneath the burden of your discipline. Just as a pregnant woman writhes and cries out in pain as she gives birth, so were we in your presence, Lord. Though harsh, these words offer comfort and clarity in a place of sorrow. I hear oftenContinue reading “Suffering in the Presence of God”

The Darkness of God

We travelers, walking to the sun, can’t see Ahead, but looking back the very light That blinded us shows us the way we came, Along which blessings now appear, risen As if from sightlessness to sight, and we, By blessing brightly lit, keep going toward That blessed light that yet to us is dark. –Continue reading “The Darkness of God”

Six Impossible Things

The White Queen: I’m just one hundred and one, five months and a day. Alice: I can’t believe that! The White Queen: Can’t you? Try again: draw a long breath, and shut your eyes. Alice: There’s no use trying. One can’t believe impossible things. The White Queen: I daresay you haven’t had much practice. When I was your age, I alwaysContinue reading “Six Impossible Things”

Learning to Lean

The breaking began a year ago. God had spoken hard things; his words scalded me. He transitioned people out of my life, one after the next—friends, community, leaders, mentors—testing my true allegiance. He called me out of the harbor and into uncharted waters, placing me into circumstances with higher stakes than ever before. I grieved.Continue reading “Learning to Lean”

The Grace of Uncertainty

Well, it’s been a long few weeks. I’ve remained silent on current affairs, not out of indifference, but because of all I do not understand. I feel the shaking, I feel a dismantling within myself, a deconstruction of who I thought myself to be and all I thought was safe and secure. It started twoContinue reading “The Grace of Uncertainty”